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Finding someone who doesn’t exist…

I don’t expect to find someone 
who will ever understand me. 

Someone who will not only understand 
my thoughts
but why I think what I think, 

Someone who will understand 
the experiences 
that shaped me. 

Someone who will know 
my darkest desires,
my deepest secrets, 
what makes me laugh, 
what makes me cry and 
what goes way beyond to touch 
the deepest corners of my soul.

Someone who will understand 
what I want to do, 
what I want to experience. 

Who understands my need to crack jokes 
in serious situations 

And why I need to see a smile 
which is there because of me, 
how it gives me hope, 
why I need that hope.

Someone who knows 
I don’t feel by halves 
it’s’s either euphoria 
or depression 
or moments when I don’t feel anything.

Someone who understands 
what gives me thrills, 
what makes me crazy, 
what breaks me apart into a million pieces.

Someone who knows 
how to deal with me 
when I am broken 
or on the verge of breaking.

I don’t want to be saved, 
I can save myself. 
But someone who is still there 
Anyways 
to make me feel safe 
if I fail. 

I don’t expect to find someone like that 
but may be, 
just may be, 
I do…

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Lost and Found

Mira and Raj loved and hated each other. So much that neither they could live together nor without the other. Raj was the closest to Mira’s heart, close enough not only to protect it but also to stab it. Mira was Raj’s only weakness. Sometimes he loved her and sometimes he hated her for the same. Through the years, they grew with each other. Love went stale but they still were each others need and weakness.

Myths of ideal love still fresh in mind,
Never learning how to survive alone.
Never learning who they truly were.
Never learning what they truly wanted.
Together they completed each other, once separated left them half of what they were.
So many problems, not a single solution. One day Raj lost it and walked out. Mira left shattered swore not to wait, she decided to complete herself again on her own.
Years passed. Wounds healed. Scars left could not be seen.
They learnt on their own the secrets of life.
They learnt where their true passions lie.
They built themselves from the scratch.
Now not halves but complete on their own,
Fate came to play it’s game.
Ex-lovers crossed paths again.
Eyes met, smiles exchanged. A coincident meeting turned into an overnight stay.
They talked all night, apologized​ for their ways, now promised to never hurt each again. Even though they were whole, Mira and Raj realized something was still left missing in their own lives. It was their hearts that they exchanged all those years ago.PicsArt_05-17-10.03.49.jpg

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Wounds that never heal…

Some wounds never heal,
You got to amputate the limb.

But what if the wound,
Lies in a place,
That you can’t just cut away,
Like your heart or your brain
And they continue hurting
With every breath you take.

People really don’t wanna die.
It’s just living with such agony
That’s hard to take..

When you are in torture
Every second of the day,
Death is nothing but
A way to stop the pain…

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Things Left Unsaid

My head is full of things to be said,

Words and words that remained unsaid.

Getting suffocated inside these walls,

Set up around me by an unseen force.

 

The Past is gone and is dead

But my memories are still intact,

Surrounding me from all the sides,

Screaming at me for being weak of mind.

 

Just like everybody I crave for one chance,

To go back in time to undo my regrets.

Regret of saying wrong things at the worst time,

Regret of leaving important things unsaid.

 

Now I want to sing my heart out,

Dance in the rain till I’m burned out.

Anything, any way I could express it to thee

Things that were left unspoken by me.

 

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Just Breathing

Breathing in and Breathing out,
That’s all my life is about.
Nothing to live for, nothing to die.
Getting sick of my monotonous life.

Breathing out and breathing in,
Feeling like a silent scream.
Need a release, I need to fly.
Need to spark my little life.

Picture of my life is all gray,
Need to fill in the colors today.
Looking out for an inspiration
To light my life and make it worth.

Where shall I find it I ask thee?
Hidden away, it seems, far from my reach,
Like somebody has stolen
The life from my being.

Now I’m just breathing in and breathing out
And Waiting for the dawn to breakout.

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What can you do when you can’t do anything

What can you do when you can’t do anything?

When you feel that your hands are tied

And not doing anything is killing you from the inside.

What can you do when you can’t do anything?

When you want to help someone,

Someone about whom you care,

But they are simply pushing you far far away.

“No!” they say ” you don’t understand”

Why will I not if only they’ll tell?

But I respect their wishes and

Vanish from their sight,

Hiding away the pain inflicted by their miseries.

Why do they consider themselves solitary in their grief?

Hasn’t the world already provided us with enough experiences of sufferings.

How can they consider themselves different from me?

When our lives have already been woven into a single thread of being.

What can you do when you can’t do anything?

Sit back and suffer the endless despair with them

Or force down their walls of privacy n endanger your relation

I guess there might be a third option to leave them on their own

But neither I am that selfless nor Nobel enough to do so…

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The Power of “I Love You”

Open your mouth and say it

“I love you”

To your parents,

To your siblings,

To your friends,

To someone special… 

Say it when they least expect it.

Say it so that later you don’t regret not saying the right words when you had the time.

Say it because they need to hear it.

Because even though not expressing your love doesn’t mean that you don’t love them.

But when they hear you say “I love you” it instantly makes this world a better place.

The world is marred by hate, by people striving for self, all the while crushing others to make their own way.

It’s need of the heart to hear you are loved in the tiny circle you live, as opposed to the entire world.